I'm still a kid

I've come to the realization that in many ways I'm stuck at about 15. I don't know why I can't get past that point, maybe it's cause I've never been able to achieve anything significant since then. So I guess I stay there as a way to deny or ignore the fact that I'm going to be 25 in April and I have nothing to show for it. I know people always tell me I'm still young, and they didn't have much at 25, but I don't feel young. I never have, I've always felt older than I am. I like to say I was born 40. I like older music, I have the cynicism of a senior who knows what's really going on in the world. I just can't seem to do anything with it. I've never been able to achieve success in anything I really cared about, really wanted to achieve. Maybe I just don't want to fold and become a miserable wage slave like everyone else my age. I don't want the positives of that lifestyle so why would I want the negatives? Sadly I don't think you can have one without the other anyway. And in this society having anything that's not 'normal' is nearly impossible. I'm convinced this is intentional, but maybe I'm wrong. I'm capable of entertaining the idea that society is the way it has to be, and that this is the bset we can do. But every time I think about that, I come to the same conclusion: That's impossible! If this is the best we can do, then we don't deserve to 'do' at all.